Showing posts with label books. Show all posts
Showing posts with label books. Show all posts

Thursday, March 27, 2014

I'm Relating to Jesus' Disciples when they doubted Jesus

Have you every doubted your faith? Do you ever go through times when you doubt the goodness of God?

For the last few months, I've been going through that myself.

Is God real? Why doesn't He answer? I've done what the Bible says but I'm not seeing any results.

I came across this blog post, The Correct Theology didn't help these guys, that was written by this guy, Ed Cyzewski, as a guest post, who wrote a book called Unfollowers: Unlikely Lessons on Faith from Those Who Doubted Jesus. I have not read this book but I will when I get a copy of it.

He wrote some things in the blog post that I really related to and are some of the lessons that I'll learn when I read the book. We sometimes forget how flawed the disciples were before, during, and even after they met, traveled with, and said goodbye to Jesus on the Cross and then at His Ascension.

Below are some things that really spoke to me.


They witnessed miracles. They listened to hours and hours of perfect, undeniably correct teaching. They’d even had the future predicted for them.
They still doubted.
When calamity struck, they bolted. They didn’t join their friends in prayer. They didn’t wait for clarity. While they had every reason to believe, they couldn’t make sense of their experiences. Doubt was too much for them. 
I take comfort that Jesus showed up even as they ran away.

He reveals himself to the incomplete, the uncertain, the wandering, and the unattached.


I relate because I've seen God's work in my life. I've seen Him answer prayer and guide me in my life but when you don't see those answers and you don't see the results of what God is doing in your life, it's easy to have doubts.

I have my doubts and fears and struggles but I believe in God. I believe in the God of the Bible. I believe in my heart that He knows what's best for me and my family, especially my little girl. I'll keep believing but I'm being honest when I say that it's not easy and at times I have a lot of doubts.

I take comfort that the disciples who lived with Jesus and was taught directly by Him, still had doubts, still didn't understand but when the time came, Jesus (God) came to them and helped their unbelief and didn't chastise them but understood them, loved them, and met them where they were in life, and used them greatly to serve Him.
They witnessed miracles. They listened to hours and hours of perfect, undeniably correct teaching. They’d even had the future predicted for them.
They still doubted.
- See more at: http://redemptionpictures.com/2014/03/26/the-correct-theology-didnt-help-these-guys/#sthash.fVYTybJv.dpuf
They witnessed miracles. They listened to hours and hours of perfect, undeniably correct teaching. They’d even had the future predicted for them.
They still doubted.
- See more at: http://redemptionpictures.com/2014/03/26/the-correct-theology-didnt-help-these-guys/#sthash.fVYTybJv.dpuf
They witnessed miracles. They listened to hours and hours of perfect, undeniably correct teaching. They’d even had the future predicted for them.
They still doubted.
- See more at: http://redemptionpictures.com/2014/03/26/the-correct-theology-didnt-help-these-guys/#sthash.fVYTybJv.dpuf
They witnessed miracles. They listened to hours and hours of perfect, undeniably correct teaching. They’d even had the future predicted for them.
They still doubted.
- See more at: http://redemptionpictures.com/2014/03/26/the-correct-theology-didnt-help-these-guys/#sthash.fVYTybJv.dpuf
They witnessed miracles. They listened to hours and hours of perfect, undeniably correct teaching. They’d even had the future predicted for them.
They still doubted.
- See more at: http://redemptionpictures.com/2014/03/26/the-correct-theology-didnt-help-these-guys/#sthash.fVYTybJv.dpuf

Tuesday, July 2, 2013

The Secret Holocaust Diaries: The Untold Story of Nonna Bannister

I just read this book and it was very moving and I'd encourage everyone to read it. Below is a poem that I thought summed up the entire book and I know there are a lot of people that would be able relate to it.


WHY?

While my body was imprisoned,
My soul was free.
Now that my body is free,
My soul is restless.

How could this happen (or be)?
Have I not dreamed of total freedom?
The dream that stayed with me for years
I dream no longer—shed no tears.

Embraced with memories so vivid,
I suffer quietly alone.
There’s no one left who shared my sorrows,
Who walked with me the road of horrors.

How many thoughts remain unspoken,
But memories can’t fade away.
The horrors of the past still haunt me,
The ghostly shadows won’t dissipate.

I tried to free myself, pretending it never happened.
Oh, what a fool I was in thinking I could easily forget.
My nights are long, my thoughts are lingering.
The past will always be with me.

No matter how I try, there’s no escape from what was real.
Should I continue to reveal?
Should others learn the true life story
Of more than one who can no longer tell?



Bannister, Nonna (2009-03-20). The Secret Holocaust Diaries: The Untold Story of Nonna Bannister (pp. 239-240). Tyndale House Publishers. Kindle Edition.

Monday, June 3, 2013

J. Frank Norris: The Shooting Salvationist by David R. Stokes

I encourage you to read this book.

This was a fascinating book and story of a man that I've heard about but didn't know much about.

The best synopsis of this book is from the book itself on the last page.
The Reverend Doctor J. Frank Norris was many things: a pastor who led the nation's first megachurch, a provocative publisher and a pioneer broadcaster. At his apex during the Roaring Twenties, Norris preached to a congregation of 10,000 at First Baptist Church in Fort Worth, Texas. With the flair of a great showman, he railed against vice and injustice.
Rev. Norris was also a killer.                                         
To those who dared to challenge him, J. Frank Norris was a formidable foe, as demonstrated with swift brutality in 1926, when he shot an unarmed critic to death. The killing and subsequent trial became a national media sensation. 
      Using more than 6,000 pages of newspaper articles, court records, and a variety of other published works, author and minister David Stokes vividly recreates the story of the fundamentalist movement's most controversial figure. Mesmerizing in its vivid details, APPARENT DANGER: The Pastor of Americas First Megachurch and the Texas Murder Trial of the Decade in the 1920s skillfully explores the events leading up to one of the most intriguing—yet least known—true crime dramas in America's legal history.
You also might be interested in the website from the author regarding this book. The Shooting Salvationist


Saturday, April 13, 2013

Elephant Girl: A Human Story by Jane Devin

I could hardly put down this book. At times it is very graphic, disturbing and raw but I kept wanting to find out what happened to this woman. I kept hoping that the next chapter in her life things would be better and just when it looked like that happened, she'd be thrown to the ground again. One thing after another showed how horrible life can be at times.

I loved how real and transparent she was throughout the book telling her story. Of the struggles that she endured and how she tried to overcome them but usually with little or very short-lived success. Using the word "struggles," is putting it mildly. I don't want to go into the emotional, physical, and sexual abuse that she endured but it made me almost physically sick to read what she endured. She talked about how in her mid-forties she contemplated suicide. To be honest, I'm surprised she didn't do it by the time she was sixteen or mid-twenties with everything that she endured.

I loved how she always had a dream to be a writer and no matter what, she kept trying to reach that goal. She has a blog and is now a published author who is not in her fifties. She's dreamed of having a house on a beach with two dogs and a typewriter on the porch where she can write her stories. I hope that one day that dream will come true.

I would recommend this book but I will warn you that her descriptions of abuse are graphic. Her language is colorful but it's real and poignant. It's not a book of redemption or her finding God but it's a real story, of a real person, who's life was "hell on earth" but her indomitable spirit wouldn't let quit and no matter what happened to her, she kept going. What a courageous story and I'm so glad that she endured and I wish her God's blessing in her life.

Tuesday, April 9, 2013

Castaway Kid by R.B. Mitchell


This is a great story. I had a hard time putting it down. It really touched my heart. I liked his honesty of how he struggled throughout his life about being neglected by his family and a belief in God. I loved hearing his struggles with God and the patience he saw God had with him throughout his life and coming to grips with his past.

I’m sure most people feel this way.
But even at age seven I could see that kids preferred poverty if they were loved, rags if they were cared for, and homelessness if someone wanted them. We were willing to suffer much if we could only be part of our own families. (pg. 28)
I love this prayer. It’s real and honest.
On a September afternoon in 1971, at age 17, I made a decision. In a little bedroom too small to turn my bed around in, I got down on my knees. Jesus, I prayed, if You are real, come into my nightmare. Forgive me of my sins and change me. If You really change me, I’m Yours forever. If You don’t, You’re a fraud and a joke. (pg. 134)
I really love this.
After saying good night, I turned off the flashlight and lay in the pitch black of our jungle hut. I needed no light to see the truth: No matter where I was, God was there for me and for everyone— regardless of culture, language, history, or color. (pg. 171)
I thought this was real good.
The answers are complex, but the foundational truth isn’t: I couldn’t change the events and circumstances imposed on me, but I could choose how to respond. The mark of a person, it seems to me, is not just in how one acts but also in how one reacts. (pg. 240)
This is very true.
When I reached out to God for the hope offered everyone regardless of race, language, or culture, I learned that nothing I do to myself or is done to me by others, no abuse or apathy, nothing that has happened or ever will happen—including death—can separate me from the love of God. That love helped me to forgive, releasing me from my painful past—just as that love has helped so many others forgive and find freedom. (pg. 241)

Tuesday, April 2, 2013

Breaking the Chains: Overcoming the Spiritual Abuse of a False Gospel by Shari Howerton

I really enjoyed this book and hearing her journey of being born, raised, and lived in a "church" for 43 years that claimed to be the only church that was part of "The Body" of Christ.

It was very insightful and it was interesting to hear how hard it was for her to leave even after she knew something was wrong and how much of a grasp the teachings had on her life even years after she left.

Her prayer is that others will see and escape the spiritual abuse and have a real relationship with God.

Below are some of the things she said that I thought we very insightful and interesting.

I learned to trust God with every aspect of my life. I learned not to judge His actions by how well they mirror my own desires. I learned to trust Him when I understand and when I do not, when I am overflowing with joy and when I am struggling to cope with life’s challenges.


But when there is coercion and pressure in the form of spiritual manipulation, there is no freedom of choice. Subtle mind control and implied messages are often the most oppressive. In all the years I spent there, I refused to believe that I was controlled; yet I never knew genuine freedom.


This philosophy of elitism encouraged abuses of power that left many atrocities in its wake. Still many remain unwaveringly conditioned by the fear of “speaking against” or even questioning these “men of God.” Although it is a warped and twisted view of the Scriptures, people with honest hearts are often vulnerable to manipulation after many years of this conditioning.

Our emotional “shelves” were not intended to carry this kind of weight. Being taught to put it on the shelf rather than deal with our pain sends a horrible message, which inflicts an additional emotional burden on every victim. It makes the victim responsible for the emotions and discomfort of everyone around him or her. Victims of abuse should never carry the weight of hurting or embarrassing their abusers, their abusers’ families, their church, or even their own families, but they do. Sometimes they carry that weight for the rest of their lives. In some cases, they are encouraged to do so by well-meaning people. Instead the message should be: “None of this is your fault.”

I have witnessed countless apathetic observers insist that victims just “have to forgive,” even in the absence of repentance. I have seen victims absolutely vilified simply because they needed to talk about what happened to them. And I believe those who remain fearfully silent today choose to suffer privately, at least in part, because they have witnessed the vilification of others who have dared to talk.

I learned that when you enable someone’s ungodly behavior, you are only thinking of yourself. If you truly love someone, you will tell them the truth instead of what they want to hear.

Any time other people’s opinions and validation mean so much to you that they make your ‘top three’ list, you are in serious trouble. At some point, you will compromise what is right in order to be considered a good person by others.”

“The essence of courage is this: Courage is facing your heart’s greatest nightmare and saying I’m going to do the right thing, I’m going to do the unselfish thing no matter what.” – Tim Keller

loyalty to a group can contribute to the breakdown of a family.

to choose a group above a relationship was idolatry.

Where justice doesn’t matter, the truth becomes something moldable and is often lost in translation. Conversely, where truth is relative, justice has little relevance.

I remember my counselor pointing out to me that a dual life was a natural by-product of legalism and perfectionism. Since none of us can actually be perfect, the next best thing is to try to look perfect.

He wrote two words on the chalkboard; humble and exalt. He had us look at the words for a few moments. Then he said, “As you walk through life, you will have to choose to either humble yourself or exalt yourself in many situations. Just remember that whichever one you choose, God will take care of the other.”

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

Letters from a Skeptic by Greg & Ed Boyd

I just finished reading Letters from a Skeptic: A Son Wrestles with His Father's Questions about Christianity and I really found it interesting. As a whole, I thought it was a great book and I thought Dr. Boyd did a great job in explaining Christianity and Salvation to his father but I also disagreed with a few things. I'm going to go through and share some of my thoughts.
NEGATIVES

On page 25, Dr. Boyd is trying to answer his father about God being responsible for all the wickedness int he world and I believe he does an admirable job of not placing blame on God but he attributes it to man's "free will." I really have a problem with this. The only time mankind had a "free will" was in the Garden with Adam and Eve. They had the will to be able to choose between good and evil. With Adam's sin, we don't have that choice any more. Our "will" is bent towards sin and away from God. Dr. Boyd is correct that we have the propensity towards great good and great evil on this earthly realm and we can make that choice but it's not because of us having a "free will." It seems to think that if we have a "free will," we'd be "robots who simply act out a divine, preplanned program." Unfortunately, our "wills" are limited by our abilities and God had given us a freedom on this earth and that freedom can be used or abused for good and for evil.

On pages 39 and following is where I have my biggest problem with this book. He states, "So God can't foreknow the good or bad decisions of the people He creates until He creates these people and they, in turn, create their decisions." Basically, he is teaching "Open Theology."

He does say that this is not the traditional Christian viewpoint but he doesn't agree with it. I believe that Scripture is very clear that God knows the beginning to the end. I won't go into refuting this theology here but God is not limited and saying that God does not know the future is limiting an Almighty God. He does try to explain his position but I have a hard time accepting it.


I also had a problem with how he explains hell.
     His first explanation
            On page 53, he talks about a "probation period" that God has in which His Creation can choose to "love or not love." When that period is over he says that they are "solidified in their decision." He says, "That is what the Bible means by heaven or hell. It is the 'externalization' of one's character."
           I don't have a problem with the "probation period" because it's based of what happened to Lucifer and his angels but to call the results "hell" is what I disagree with. Maybe he was saying that he results of choosing not to love God is that you'll go to hell.

     His second explanation
              On page 196, Dr. Boyd states that most people don't talk about a literal hell. He says that the Bible uses metaphors to describe hell to let people know that it's a really bad place "and none of them are to be taken as a literal 'snapshot' of what hell is going to be like." He says that the Bible authors are telling us that hell is "the refuse of humanity. It is the dumping grounds of the cosmos. It is the ultimate destiny of people who freely choose to live a life God never intended for them. They become 'garbage' ..'cast out'..'burned in the fire.'"


     His third explanation
            On page 199, he says that some believe that "God will ultimately annihilate all who are not 'in Christ.' The punishment is 'eternal' because it has eternal effects, not because it is endured eternally." He does state that he has reservations about this view but it is a view that some theologians believe based on what they think the Bible says.
            
 I really don't like how he explains away God's Will. On pages 58-59, Dr. Greg is explaining why bad things happen to people and he says that those looking for the "purpose of God" have "a piously confused way of thinking." He says that, "The only purpose of God in the whole thing is His design to allow morally responsible people the right to decide whether to drink responsibly or irresponsibly."

POSITIVES

On page 26 he makes a great distinction between religion and relationship.

On page 29 he makes some great statements. He refers to "free will" (which I don't agree with) but his comments about God's lack of interference are very insightful. He asks, "What is the freedom to love or not love unless it is freedom to enrich or harm another?" He goes on to say, "A freedom which is prevented from being exercised whenever it was going to be misused simply wouldn't be freedom." He even gives a good illustration to explain his point.

On page 34, he makes a very interesting statement when he said, "Love is really the only reason worth creating! It's not freedom for the sake of freedom that God values - it's love. Freedom is simply the only possible means to this end."

The following paragraph, found on pages 43-44, I found very interesting and insightful.
It may be that a good deal of what we call “evil” is simply due to the fact that anything which God could create would be limited in certain respects. The very fact that what God creates is less than Himself introduces limitations and imperfections into the picture. Any created thing must, for example, possess a limited set of characteristics which rules out the possibility of it possessing other characteristics incompatible with these. But this can lead to some unfortunate consequences. The rock which holds you up must also be hard enough for you to stub your toe on it. The air which you breathe must also be thin enough to allow you to fall through it when not supported by a hard surface. The water which quenches your thirst must also be dense enough so you can’t breathe in it, and so on. The dependability of the world which makes it possible for rational, morally responsible creatures to live works against us in certain circumstances. Indeed, every positive feature of any created entity is a potentially negative feature in certain circumstances.
Throughout the book I love his clear presentation of the gospel and his encouragement to his father to accept Christ as his Savior.
On page 35, he states, "On the cross of Calvary, God took upon Himself all the sin of the world, and all the pain and punishment that that sin produces. He didn't have to. He did it out of love - because love is worth it. It's worth dying for, even in God's view."
On page 54 he says, "God has given us in Jesus Christ. He became a man, lived His life, and died on the cross to perfectly reconcile us with God and to give us a new life— God’s life."
On page 90, he answers, "If God is the one perfect, loving, caring being, then we would suppose that He would do everything possible to bring about the greatest possible good for His creatures. Anything less would be less than perfect. And Christ reveals that this is exactly what God did! God Himself became a man, one of us, and suffered a hellish death on the cross of Calvary in order to rectify all the evil which His personal creatures, humans, have inflicted on themselves. He has done, and is doing, everything possible (“ possible” defined by the limits required by His overall agenda) to have us humans eternally with Him."
On pages 220-221 he gives a beautiful description of a Christian's sanctification. He says, "Christians, then, are each much like a butterfly in a cocoon. The life of beauty, of flying, of gracefulness is within them— it’s who they truly are— but this life is enclosed inside something which is inherently opposed to beauty, flying, and gracefulness. They are destined to fly, but in the meantime their life is a life of transition. They are butterflies in the process of shedding their cocoons."

I thought his discussion on prayer on pages 80-84 was pretty good and he uses some pretty good analogies. One of the things he says is, "If petitionary prayer could be conclusively “verified,” it would turn God into a sort of cosmic vending machine. Make your requests, pull the lever, and abracadabra, you have your wish granted. But this defeats the whole purpose of prayer, which is to facilitate a faith-filled relationship with the Creator. So it takes faith to pray, and faith to see the answer to prayer."

In his letter on March 8, 1990 that starts on page 95, I really liked his defense of the historical accuracies of the Bible. This will lend credibility later when he defends it being God's Word and inspired. This topic is discussed some more in his May 23rd letter starting on page 113.

This is probably my favorite and probably most insightful statement I read in the entire book. He says, "Fundamentalists, at the opposite extreme, are so afraid of anything “liberal” that they tend to read the Bible “ahistorically.” They try to make the Bible into a twentieth-century legal document."

Page 210 starts probably the best chapter in the book when Dr. Boyd answers the question, "How can another man's death pardon me?"

At the end of the book is written a beautiful tribute to his dad and how accepting Christ changed his dad's life. To be honest, it brought tears to my eyes.

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

The Blacksmith's Shop

In the shop of a blacksmith, there are three types of tools. There are tools on the junk pile:
    outdated,
      broken,
        dull,
          rusty.
They sit in the cobwebbed corner, useless to their master, oblivious to their calling.

There are tools on the anvil:
    melted down,
      molten hot,
        moldable,
          changeable.
They lie on the anvil, being shaped by their master, accepting their calling.

There are tools of usefulness:
    sharpened,
      primed,
        defined,
          mobile.
They lie ready in the blacksmith's tool chest, available to their master, fulfilling their calling.

Some people lie useless:
    lives broken,
      talents wasting,
        fires quenched,
          dreams dashed.
They are tossed in with the scrap iron, in desperate need of repair, with no notion of purpose.

Others lie on the anvil:
    hearts open,
      hungry to change,
        wounds healing,
          visions clearing.
They welcome the painful pounding of the blacksmith's hammer, longing to be rebuilt, begging to be called.

Others lie in their Master's hands:
    well tuned,
      uncompromising,
        polished,
          productive.
They respond to their Masters' forearm, demanding nothing, surrendering all.

We are all somewhere in the blacksmith's shop.

Poem by Max Lucado, in his book called, On The Anvil

Monday, June 18, 2012

SHATTERED by Bill Harbeck

The full title is SHATTERED - One Man's Journey from Sexual Abuse.

I just finished reading this book. It's a true story of a man who was abused from the age of 13 to 19 by his uncle. He hid this secret from every single person. He was married for 26 years before he finally told his wife and little bit longer before he told his kids.

Here's some lessons from his book.


1.      Keeping your abuse secret has serious consequences.
a.     It affected his emotional connection to his wife.
b.     It tore him up inside and he felt alone and worthless while pretending to everyone else that life was perfect.
c.      He developed unhealthy coping behaviors to hide his secret
d.     His children learned these behaviors even though they had not been abused

2.      When he finally told his secret to his wife a great burden was lifted and the healing could begin.

3.      Healing takes time and every person’s journey will be different.

4.      According to Bill on pages 114-5, the phrases “forgive and forget” “move on” “demonstrate a little more faith, that’s what Jesus would do” is disrespectful.

He says, “but to simplify the pathway or timeline is to seriously disrespect the level of damage abuse does. Forgiveness can be very complicated….Survivors may take years to just be able to speak about the pain, and then more years to be able to rebuild themselves and their relationships with family, friends, and God.

5.      Find a good counselor!! He tells how the first counselor did more damage and it was another seven years until he saw another one and then only under duress.

 I highly recommend that everyone read this book.

Saturday, April 28, 2012

DRACULA

I just finished reading Dracula by Bram Stoker, 1897 edition. It was a free Kindle e-book download. I debated about reading it because I'm not into horror movies, vampires, zombies, etc but it was free and it's considered a classic.

I've never seen the movie. I've seen small bits and pieces and I know how they portray Dracula at his castle. One of the character's is name Van Helsing and I wouldn't be surprised if the character in Van Helsing movies is loosely based on this character.

What surprised me the most is that this could be a book from an author who could be a Christian. Before you write me off, let me tell you why.

First, although Dracula is a big character in the book and he does make other people vampires, that is not the main thrust of the book. This was a big surprise to me. I thought it would be centered around him making new vampires.

Second,  the premise of the book was good, upstanding, God-fearing people trying to fight back the force of evil and wickedness, namely, Dracula. They were consistently talking about the will of God, God protecting them, and the outcome being all in the hands of God.

Third, they were concerned with the long-term and future generations of ridding the world of Dracula and not just getting him out of England. This seemed significant to me because they wanted to do the right thing even though nobody would believe them, or what they had to go through, and they willingly put their lives in danger.

Fourth, and the biggest surprise I had with this book, several times one of the characters referred to God's Son's obedience and death on the Cross. Below are some excerpts so you can read them yourself.

"For so surely as we live, that scar shall pass away when God sees right to lift the 
burden that is hard upon us. Till then we bear our Cross, as His Son did in obedience to His Will. It may be that we are chosen instruments of His good pleasure, and that we ascend to His bidding as that other through the stripes and shame."

“Thus are we ministers of God’s own wish. That the world, and men for whom His Son die, will not be given over to monsters, whose very existence would defame Him."

Overall, I found it a very intriguing book and I was very surprised that the premise of the book was good overcoming evil and not evil overcoming good.